I used to need to know everything but now I know better.

I used to need to know everything but now I know better.

I used to need to know everything but now I know better. 3864 2587 Anna Roberts

My husband often says I am ‘on a needs to know basis’. In most things I want to know the who, the what, the where, the why. I like the ins and outs. I like the facts. I like context. I like to understand.

In life, I like to know the plan. I like to know what’s going on, what’s happening next. 

I want to have a tangible grasp, a reference point for where I stand and a road map for where I need to be. 

I accept that I am inquisitive by nature, and that detail can be important, but recently I’ve begun to really think about the weight I attribute to grasping knowledge and understanding in my everyday life and situations, and why I often strive to obtain it. 

I’ve been listening to the song ‘New Wine’ (from the beautiful new Hillsong album called ‘There Is More’) One of the lines in the song has really resounded in my heart. It goes:

So I yield to you and to your careful hand. When I trust you I don’t need to understand.”

I’ve come to realise that there are times when God requires us to suspend the call for full disclosure; to place our trust into his careful hand.

The careful hand of God. Meticulous in order; careful and sure in His approach. The careful hand that created all the complexities of the heavens and the earth. The careful hand that holds our lives securely. 

Something quite profound happens when we yield to, come under and surrender to the careful hand of God. 

An exchange takes place when we yield to the knowledge that He is good, to the understanding that He is able.

In Phillippians, we read: 

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4:6-7)

Peace. The peace of God, transcends understanding. It is the peace of God that is the prize to attain; a prize much more satisfying than even the fullest level of comprehension.

Our hearts and minds will be guarded by the peace of God as we surrender our need to know to the one who really knows us.

We will find stillness in His presence as we lay down our quest for understanding.

It is from that place of peace that we can believe that He is truly able, truly for us. The need to know diminishes. Trust overtakes the yearning for detail. Faith overshadows the desire for understanding. 

God is good. God is in control. And sometimes, that is all I need to know.

Georgia Barrow

Georgia has been a part of our Hope City Liverpool location since she was a student. She is married to Steve and has two little boys, Joshua & Zachary. She loves Call The Midwife, writing short novels in birthday cards & tea in a china cup.